Tuesday, December 23, 2014

It's so odd...

The "holiday" time of year is weird to me.  It used to be so much fun and I loved every aspect of it.  Somewhere along the line things began changing.

The commercialism and crass "gimme" and "I want" nature of people comes out and it, to be blunt, disgusts me.  Not to mention the people that don't have anything to do with you all year long that suddenly pop back up on your radar complete with an attitude of fake lovey dovey all because it is a gifting time of year and they want something...that or they are trying to make themselves feel better by fake attempting to reach out.

My Christmas list is quite simple.  I don't really want or need anything.  I don't expect people to buy me something (especially don't want my children to feel like they have to just because of the date on the calendar...NOR am I going to make them feel guilty for not getting me something-although, sad to say, there are plenty of people that do such a thing).  What do I really want?  Honesty, "realness", time together--even if it is reduced to regular communication by text!  I want the people I care about to be truly present in my life and me to be in theirs.  That is the best.  It gets tricky, though.  I dearly love gifting the ones I love throughout the year, not just on "the day". 

The family traditions from back in the day are not so much traditions anymore.  The only real family tradition is that something different is added or removed each year.  It keeps things fresh.  Nothing is constant except for change.

So, how do I keep from being a Grinch or a Scrooge?  It's difficult to say the least.  For me, it requires focus on what really matters to me for the entire year and not on one or two prescribed days.  If you can't show the same "love" on some random day of the year, then I'm pretty sure it's not sincere.

Don't take these ramblings as a sign of darkness.  Honesty is not always pretty and rarely ever shared freely. 

All this being said, I wish for all of you, my family and friends to have a very Merry Christmas or Happy Hanukkah of Happy Festivus or Happy December 25...whatever date or celebration you choose.

Now, back to some knitting...

2 comments:

  1. Welcome back to the blog! Watcha knittin'?

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  2. Totally agree with your sentiments. Thanks for a great evening and a new craft skill!! Merry Christmas, Dina!

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